Have any of you ever searched for “endometriosis” on YouTube? You’d be shocked at how many videos are posted on there showing the cutting and removal of adhesions and endometriomas, as captured by laparascope. I’m fairly proud of my strong stomach, but there’s a huge difference between the scariest horror movie and watching a true life video of an ovary literally being torn open with instruments to access a very bloody endometrioma. Same goes for the burns left on ovaries, the uterus, etc. during the removal of adhesions.
It is certainly not the sort of thing you should be watching 2 days before your third laparoscopy/hysteroscopy/cystoscopy with hydrodistention, during which they will either be removing an endometrioma or — more likely than not — removing your entire right ovary and fallopian tube.
However, it is knowledge, and it’s important to see and know precisely what’s about to be done to me, and also a great way to show people who don’t understand why your pain and recovery post-op is so strong — or just don’t “get” endo pain and what’s causing it — a very direct path to “getting it.”
Am up at 6 a.m. partially due to a continually later and later bed time thanks to working nights and then coming home to my boyfriend, who stays up almost as late as I do. Tonight I am up so late (early?) because I was “sick” all day Saturday with severe abdominal cramping. It seems to have disappeared only to be replaced by severe pelvic pain, both deep and on the right side. Deep because of my recently discovered adenomyosis, and right because that ovary was recently found to be stuck to the side of my uterus with adhesions (severity unknown since endometriosis cannot be seen via ultrasound) and a cyst with debris that is almost as big as the whole ovary itself. The cyst is either a hemorrhagic cyst (ovulation gone wrong) or an endometrioma. Hopefully not anything else, either!
Tuesday is my next surgery. I plan to take videos and post them, and also return to the Endo Sucks! universe. Stick with me, the story gets better.